Source:I’m having one of those nights again. You know what I’m talking about. A night where I can’t sleep. I’m plagued by my emotions and thoughts and all of my senses are being overwhelmed by memories. It’s hard to get them to back off long enough to hear You sometimes. They’re SO LOUD! They’re like…
I won’t be able to sleep. I’ve been on here and the Ear Training website too long for me to be able to sleep now (I have a love/hate relationship with technology). It’s also too late at night for me to take any sleep meds. Sooo I can either work on Dr Hooks’ side project or I can work on a story idea I came up with a few hours ago. I think I’ll go make some tea first. That’ll soothe me.
If I go for the music project that a non-music professor told me to do, I’ll need just a wee bit of help. I want it to start in a minor key then change towards the end. Anyone partial to one? It’s a happy song but it needs to be in minor to start out. I know that much. I just always have trouble picking a key. I know it’s rude of me to ask you lot for help on my assignment, but choosing a key is the hardest part about composing for me. It take a lot of thought. It has to feel right or the whole song is wrong. That may be odd to say but for instance, I can hear a song on the radio and like it but it just sounds wrong. Why? Because the key doesn’t match the emotions and imagery of the lyrics.
The song is about love that hasn’t been found yet. In the eyes of a 30-ish year old woman who is trying to make sure that she waits and doesn’t settle on second best. I can’t post the lyrics b/c my professor hasn’t sent them to me yet but he and I went over them earlier. This is the bare outline of what is going on. The reason that there will be a key change is that the woman sees hope and is clinging to that while she waits. Help?
How do you people without ADHD stand it? It’s so quiet in here… I never imagined what it must be like in those funny little heads of yours. It’s quiet. So quiet. While I like the fact that I can concentrate on my writings this morning, I don’t like the loneliness of it. I’m probably being a bit repetitive after last night but it just amazes me…and freaks me out. I feel like someone has stuffed earplugs into my mind. It’s silent and a bit stifling. Almost like being claustrophobic… Yikes. I’m glad this only lasts a few hours. I should be done with this by dinner time and will be able to enjoy my insomnia a bit more tonight. The bad thing about insomnia is when you can’t think of anything to think of. So you lay there, bored, for hours. At least when my mind is buzzing, I can entertain myself. XD
Insomnia from the antidepressants, my ADHD meds and just the fact that I’m already an insomniac have reared their ugly heads. By the time I was ready to go to bed, it was past the time that I could take my sleep meds without having problems in the morning. To top it off, the fact that I didn’t have dinner just kicked me in the gut. That didn’t help with the not sleeping part.
So here I am, at 1 in the morning, blogging and eating a giant bowl of fruit loops with soy-milk instead of sleeping… haha oh well, tomorrow will be an easy day anyways so I’m not too worried…other that the fact that I can’t have caffeine until Lent is over and I’m supposed to be up at six so that I can be at work by 8… No big deal… Sorry for the rant. I try not to complain too much because then I just feel needy and annoying but I’m tired, grumpy, and still hungry…
Insomnia almost won again last night… Almost… I beat it’s face in with a great, short, imaginary adventure and it shut up. We’ll go to war again to night… XD
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