I know that I’ve probably mentioned this to you all before but I’m really shy and people scare the crumbs out of me. I have a hard time speaking. Vocal words don’t come naturally to me. I do better with writing things down. If I don’t, I stutter, pause, and fragment my way through conversations. It’s worse when I’m nervous. Speech class is a butt. lol
But in all seriousness, I’m afraid of people. I guess because of my anxiety and shyness, I’m afraid that they’ll judge me for my poor speaking ability. That, and with how my thoughts are fragmented, my words come out the same way. Jumbled and incoherent. It’s difficult to organize them on the spot into something tangible for others. People that don’t know me very well and are not used to it have a hard time understanding. They are constantly asking, ‘what?’ ‘Can you repeat that?’ ‘I don’t understand what you mean.’
It can be so disheartening for me to be stuck in a conversation with someone I do know. But when it’s someone that I don’t? It’s a living hell for me. I’m so skiddish that I mumble and trip my way through the discussion, praying for it to be over.
I say all of this for a certain purpose. If you get a weird, shy anon. It’s most likely me. It’s easier to talk to people online but it’s still hard for me to start the convo with you. Just bare with me until I feel a bit more comfortable and take it off of anon. Or drop me a line first. That’s a good way to get me talking. Take the initiative and talk to shy people. We have a hard time coming to others. We sometimes need a push to get us going. ^^’
Love you all!