Perfect Simplicity

I’m going to miss the Adam streaming. I’m going to lose precious alone time. I’m going to be told something that I don’t want to hear. I didn’t sleep at all last night, despite my meds. Who could with the chaos? I’m tired, I fell asleep in my favourite class taught by my favourite teacher. Ah well, I’m making it up to him with a coffee/brunch outing in a half hour. My head is pounding and it’s all I can do to not wear my sunglasses inside again like yesterday. I can’t handle light very much anymore anyways. Just gives me a migraine. I’m thinking that this fall when I go for an eye exam, I’m going to get prescription sunglasses and start wearing them everywhere like Bono. I’m cool enough to pull that off. Right? Whatever. I can’t drive without sunglasses anymore; night or day. I can barely handle being inside without the lights off or dimmed. I think something is wrong. Maybe it’s just my medicines that are making me more sensitive than normal. Maybe it’s just stress. What does it matter? It’s been getting worse for the past two-ish years now. Maybe I’m just over sensitive naturally or something.

Mostly, I’m just kind of numb. My head (migraine) is numb. My thoughts are numb. My emotions are numb. I made that glitter jar last night. It helped a little but I don’t think I got enough oil in it. The glitter kind of clumped up. XDD I also couldn’t find the food colouring. I might buy some on the way home. Blue and red. Or green. Purple and green are my favourite colours. They always make me feel better. I didn’t make it for cutting but just because I needed something quiet to distract me.

Just keep my brother and I in your prayers. We need it. His grades are dropping and he’s getting into more trouble because of this mess and my health is pretty much shot. Could also use a cookie or some black cherry Hagen Dass but I’ve lost about 10 pounds the past few weeks. I don’t want to gain it back. XD

On a brighter note, here’s a pretty picture I found on DeviantArt:

Now to go draw something. I hope. I’ve been staring at this paper for about ten minutes now. I can’t bring myself to draw anything even though I know that I need to. XD

Depression. Poster #3. This one didn’t turn out as well as I had hoped. :/ ah well.

Imagine. For imagination. Poster #3.

Anxiety. Poster #1. ADHD project.

I gotta finish that project… uggggggggggh so tired…

and I seriously just duck faced at my computer screen so that I could concentrate. I’ll go burn the computer now. I’m sorry.

Can’t figure out why it has to take it out on me when the Wolf has done something “stupid”. How’d I get dragged into the madness of these animals? Ugh. Can I go Home now? :/ I’m sorry for existing and being in the way.

She’s been in school off and on for 17 years. She’s in her last semester and is ready to graduate. One of her classes has an exit exam that’s not required by the state but the school she goes to makes you take it. It doesn’t matter if you want to or not. And if you fail it then you don’t graduate. My mom was one question short of passing the test (along with over half of the class) and if the school doesn’t allow a retake, then my mom has to go one more semester. She’s having a bad day and I’m asking that you guys lift her up and if you want/can, send messages to my fanbox and I can show them to her to cheer her up. She’s worked very hard and is 10th in her class of 60 and she might not be able to walk because of a stupid, meaningless test.

I’m thinking of drawing the Once-ler but I was wondering if you all had a thought as to what he should be doing or if there needs to be a specific object with him. I thought about maybe him coming out of the shower/bathroom wrapped in a towel with a Thneed on his head. Kind of like what we girls do to towel dry our hair? Maybe have the Lorax peeking out from behind a wall or something at him. XD Idek. I could write a short story to go along with the picture too if you want. I’m in a writing mood this week. :0) Thoughts? Ideas?

Anybody have the original picture of the photogenic guy? I want to make some posters for the school bathrooms…

It really ticks me off. We pay 25k a year and they can’t even give us decent wifi. What if I had a paper to turn in? You won’t let me on my email. What if I need to watch something for class on netflix? Too bad, go buy the freaking documentary with the money you don’t have or take an F. What if? Forget it. But! No. Didn’t you hear us?

So, you let me on tumblr and facebook and ask. Those are LITERALLY the only sites my computer will function on right now. How does that help me with my hw? It in fact, makes it worse. Just because we’re moving campuses next semester doesn’t give you the excuse to make us suffer an entire semester. Even the professors are irritated about it. Can they do anything about it? Nerp. Can we, the students do anything? Nerp. Oh, okay. No big deal. I’m sorry that the 25k wasn’t enough for you. I’d give you more but you’ve already taken every penny that I own so… we’re kinda at a draw.

Please fix the internet so that I may do my hw like a good nerd student. Mk? That’s all I want out of life. I just want to do my hw. Yeah, tumblr and facebook have their benefits, but not when I need to email a paper that’s due in 20 minutes.

I feel much better. My grades don’t, but I do. :P

I won’t be able to sleep. I’ve been on here and the Ear Training website too long for me to be able to sleep now (I have a love/hate relationship with technology). It’s also too late at night for me to take any sleep meds. Sooo I can either work on Dr Hooks’ side project or I can work on a story idea I came up with a few hours ago. I think I’ll go make some tea first. That’ll soothe me.

If I go for the music project that a non-music professor told me to do, I’ll need just a wee bit of help. I want it to start in a minor key then change towards the end. Anyone partial to one? It’s a happy song but it needs to be in minor to start out. I know that much. I just always have trouble picking a key. I know it’s rude of me to ask you lot for help on my assignment, but choosing a key is the hardest part about composing for me. It take a lot of thought. It has to feel right or the whole song is wrong. That may be odd to say but for instance, I can hear a song on the radio and like it but it just sounds wrong. Why? Because the key doesn’t match the emotions and imagery of the lyrics.

The song is about love that hasn’t been found yet. In the eyes of a 30-ish year old woman who is trying to make sure that she waits and doesn’t settle on second best. I can’t post the lyrics b/c my professor hasn’t sent them to me yet but he and I went over them earlier. This is the bare outline of what is going on. The reason that there will be a key change is that the woman sees hope and is clinging to that while she waits. Help?